Where My Mind Wanders?

"If you want to know where your heart is, notice where your mind goes when it wanders"

This is a text message that I received from a friend just recently. Since I received it, I can't stop thinking what is it really that I like or what my heart wants.

I always get contented of the things that I already have thinking that that's what God gave me. However, I am thinking of things that are entirely different and unrelated from what I have now. I keep telling other people that I love what I'm doing but, in my dreams, there's a different Stella I see. She does things that I don't do now and I can see that she is very happy. All these things are confusing me these past few days. I want to follow what my mind tells me but there are so many things that I also need to consider--my family, friends, relatives, and time. As much as I hate all these thoughts, I don't have the courage and capability to contradict them.

One of my dear friends also told me this morning that I should not settle for mediocrity. Well, this seems that the world is already telling me that I should start thinking of the future. But before that, maybe, I should learn how to be courageous enough to stand up and fight for what I really want.

(The Disturbed Me. Haha. I find this quite scary.)